In 2016, I published my first novella through Kindle Direct Publishing and a company called Createspace (now owned by Amazon). Titled Pirate Ophelia, it is an adventure story about a woman and her desire to become a pirate, giving a fictional, almost feminist twist to a story sprung from bits…

When I was a kid, I was one of the very few girls who played video games. It wasn’t something that girls did back in the 1980s. Little girls were supposed to play with Barbies and baby dolls. They were supposed to play dress up and pretend to be wives…

So of course when people find out I have anxiety, they like to give me their opinion of how they think I should cope with it. Though some are from people also suffering who like to share their techniques, most are from people who really have no concept of what…

Continuing from my last post, let us look at the main question: what is it like to have crippling anxiety? I consider mine to be “crippling” because it affects my ability to do simple tasks, like drive a car, for example, or sometimes just leave my home. Most people do…

In an attempt to explain my anxiety to my husband, I searched the internet for effective ways to do this and found a lot of useless information that was more often about positive thinking than actually living with anxiety. However, I did come across a few articles written by people…

Originally published on the author’s blog on March 12, 2023. Random comment the other day: what is it like to be me? It’s stressful, that’s what it’s like. You get to solve everyone’s problems and be empathetic, but rarely do you receive the same in return. Partially because others cannot…

To say this past week has been rough is really an understatement. Honestly, it’s been a rough several months. I posted back in January about our asshole neighbor. After a couple warnings from the landlord, it became a more manageable noise: not every day, and not really noticeable over the…

Sometimes I wonder how I have survived this long. I suffered from depression as a teenager and have struggled with anger and rage for much of my life. Rage is not uncommon in my family tree: from murders to domestic violence, it is an all too familiar occurrence. …

Yesterday I suffered a tragedy. Not quite as big as when our cat Loki passed away in October, but still enough to cause sadness and depression. Our rental complex has never taken issue with my garden, aside from the one time winter ice broke my little wooden fences. …